Between my freshman and sophomore years at BYU, I was at a loss in many areas of life. I had so many questions, and no answers. I knew I didn't have answers for my questions but I thought writing them down would help, because throughout my life writing has helped me work through problems; so I wrote them down. Where will I find a job? Should I break up with my boyfriend? What should I study in school? My questions - though trivial - were important to me at the time, and though I didn't have answers I simply kept living life and trying my best. A few months later, I stumbled upon these questions I had written. I realized that all of my questions had been answered; I had found a job, I decided to break up with that boyfriend and it was a fantastic desicion and I was set on the path to become a dietician. I knew immediately my questions had been answered by the Lord.
This experience was a few years ago. More recently, I remembered this experience and began a journal that I began to fill with questions. Perhaps it is part of my personality, but I have a lot of questions! Even after months there were many questions I had written down that were simply not being answered. After realizing this I was disheartened at first. I thought that by writing down my questions and actively seeking answers, that a majority of my questions would be answered. What I discovered is that the Lord answers my questions in his own way, on his timetable. I do not think he is keeping information from me to be cruel or to exercise power, however I truly believe that he has a plan for me and there is a specific time and place to know certain answers. I also have learned that when you have an important question for a long time, when you receive the answer it is much more precious to you than it otherwise would be.
So, I am going to keep writing quetsions, even the difficult ones, and I know the Lord will answer them at the right time for me in my life - I will earnestly seek out my answers - I know that having my questions in mind when I am reading scriptures, attending church and listening to inspiring messages is important, but I will accept when I don't receive answers. I will be at peace, because I trust the Lord and His timing.
